Finding Strength in Vulnerability: Turning to God when the world fails us!

Have you ever had a day where it felt like everything was just a little too much? I don't even know why I would ask such a question. Of course you have. We all have days where life becomes the last thing you want to deal with and yet, we are forced to face it anyway. Yesterday was the exact definition of one of those days and I am fighting every emotion I have in order to make sure today is calmer.

My life has been incredible these past few weeks and yet, I was feeling downright awful. How does that make sense? I was blessed with my family's support in creating a safe space for Christian women. My disease hasn't been causing me as much pain lately. I have a roof over my head and a stomach filled with delicious food, courtesy of my loving and dependable family. Why would I be irritated? Why would I be so overcome with depression, anxiety, guilt, and anger all of the sudden? The only reason that came to my mind was spiritual warfare.

There are women and men all over the place who devote two hour long videos talking about this very thing. Like how it was keeping them from getting out of the bed in the morning or even brushing their hair. I was doing so well lately that I started to forget that feeling of fragility. When I tell you I broke down over a small inconvenience, I mean I literally ate a pint of ice cream and cried on the way to the store to get cookies. That's an example of a woman mentally exhausted and in desperate need of personal time with the Lord.

Now, this is where I tell you what helps me after moments like this. Yes, I could continue to eat until my stomach hurt and guilt proceeded. But that wouldn't make things better and I would still end up depressed and fed up. Instead, I decided to sit down and read my grandmas book that she wrote before she passed. It was left to all of her grandchildren, so that they could have little bits of wisdom and guidance in the future.

She was so devoted to God and loved Him with every inch of her soul. Her goal was to make sure her family was saved and completely mesmerized by His word. The book is filled with short stories, scripture, and little notes to her loved ones. It immediately calmed my mind and I was able to come back to my senses. You want to know what helps me? Well, that's it. I have to be surrounded by God and His word. You know, this entire conversation/post makes me think of Matthew 11:28.

"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

There will be many times in your life where you are overwhelmed. The thing is, we aren't meant to handle it on our own. We need to call upon the Lord to alleviate our discomfort and guide us in times of panic and self destruction. As someone who has tried to handle it on her own, as well as going to the world for reassurance, trust me you will never be satisfied with that. Finding peace in God and putting trust in the sacrifice made by Jesus are essential for experiencing true contentment in life. It is through this unwavering faith that you can find joy.

Depression and anxiety are bound to happen, but with God anything is possible. Your happiness can be restored through His word. Do not forget how loved you are! That's the message I want to leave you with as we wrap up the blog posts for this week. I love y'all and if you need anything, don't hesitate to reach out!

"And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him."

1 John 4:16

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.

Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Romans 8:35-39